WHAT A LIFE

we are off out today ,   nice day at the council office, i need to put in for houseing ben as my widows ben is only 82 a week and the rent is 70 odd.... even a lil will help and the blinking council tax .... but we will nip to macdonalds after  so that will b nice for the kids.....

feeling a bit lost if i am honest.. this time of year is a killer for anyone who is alone, i know i have my kids and a would b worse if not for them but i still miss running what we r getting ppl for xmas by him and him saying,   yea great babe they will love it,

kev and i  always said we were together cos that was what we wanted if one of us didnt want it we would split up, he said that he knew i would b ok i was strong and would cope really well, i wonder if he can see this weak woman now lol,dont get me wrong i aint falling apart, but i really dont feel like the ox kev thought i was lol........ its 6 months now and i still miss him constantly ... i would get up early and kev would keep me topped up with coffee he would then sleep in the arm chair most of the day but he was still there ,, like now if i was dizzy he would b really helpfull, silly things like coming downstairs, i had to call him, having a bath,he would sit in the bathroom. i never asked he just done it, he felt it was his job to look after me bless him,we have a big turkey xmas and he would help me get it in and out of the oven,mental note to self small turkey this year, i remember once we were doing doughnuts and the deep fat fryer started to fall cant remember y now but he pushed me out of the way and caught it b4 i got hurt,,, he was and still is MY HERO lol...... he would really laugh at that.. he was a strong man with a heart of gold a brilliant dad (maybe too good) and a caring hubbie............. i hope he is happy where ever he is .............

sorry i have tryed to read this bk for typos but i just cant   .....

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