RACH AND HER WEIGHT

Hi...this is another sad entry because after everything that has happened , the cancer etc..and the depression , then the joy that I have been saved and now in remission, my most loyal friend of the four legged variety, Whoopie, my lovely black lab was put down last week.

We first bought Whoopie when our other old lad passed on and I never thought that I could love another in the same way that I loved JR. But Whoopie came into our lives as a bundle of joy,taking away my grief. He and I were inseperable, apart when I went away, but when we came home ,he would be waiting, those big soft brown eyes that melted my heart, the way he his tail would wag when we opened the car door, all the licks and cuddles we shared. How can an animal be such a part of a family, but he was...he and my horses were my family, and I had to watch the vet and my friend take him to the stables, his tail wagging, not knowing it was to be the final goodbye. I wanted to shout STOP..bring him back, so I can give him another chance to live, but his cancer had spread and unlike humans', he went with grace , able to face his demise with dignity..before he suffered. Hazel, my friend gave him Reike and I believe that he passed away as if he was sleeping, no pain, no last look, just accepting that the time was right.

I didn't cry, because I knew that the tears would never stop, and I know that he had the best life I could have given him, and as the end was near, I said my goodbye's. Zac, his friend, our other dog was with him as the vet said he would know. I love Zac, he is a lovely dog, but he is a man's dog, my son's dog. Aneurin's dog, but he was never 'my' dog, like Whoopie, who was my dog.Now he has gone, poor Zac is sad and I cuddle him , talk to him, but it will take a while for him to settle. His pic is on my side panel.I won't buy another lab, not yet, the time is not right. Labs are very greedy and Whoopie became quite fat, even when he was kept on a diet..he would find food wherever he could. I asked the vet if it was my fault but he said that the cancer was nothing to do with over feeding or anything we could have done.I just wanted to write this tonight, just to share my grief, to write is cathartic,remembering that puppy who bounced into our lives eleven years ago.

Goodbye Whoopie, you will never suffer, never feel pain, you are in the best place, and in my heart.

I hope this was not too depressing, but 'blogs' allow us to share and I have shared so much with you.

All for now, will talk about my weight, which is going up due to these Tamoxafin tabs, next time.

love

Rachey.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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• #17 Comment from zoepaul6968 
  29/02/08 21:33 | Permalink

  oh hun my sympathies are with you,what a year youve had so far,please feel comforted in the time you shared with whoopie,what a handsome fellow he was zoe xx
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• #16 Comment from preciousone25 
  28/02/08 02:50 | Permalink

  My first time at your journal, I'm so sorry for your loss, he was a beautiful dog!!
  
  Joann
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• #15 Comment from candlejmr 
  28/02/08 02:30 | Permalink

  I'm so very sorry for your loss.  My miniature daschund is 10 and I know she won't live forever, but I can't imagine losing her.  My heart goes out to you and your family.  
  
  ((hugs))
  Jeanne
• #14 Comment from jeanno43 
  28/02/08 00:47 | Permalink

  I am so very sorry for your loss. We have lost quite a few animals over many years, each one is individual, each one is irreplaceable, each one gives its own special love.  I am glad your beautiful dog did not suffer and that you mad the right and unselfish decision that all responsible owners must make. You will always treasusre those wonderful memories.  Big hugs to you, I know just how you feel.
• #13 Comment from fasttrack58 
  28/02/08 00:42 | Permalink

  I'm so sorry.... bringing special thoughts...
  Linda...