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Taking A Break

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 11:11:50 GMT

Hello everyone, I am taking a wee break from my Journal for a week or 2. I have a lot of stuff to sort out and desperately need to get something sorted out work wise. I will be popping online as I need to check out the new vacancies posted, and enter sentence of the week! lol, so If anybody needs me, or wants me to see something then, Please just send me an email.

I will feel strange turning off my alerts but I really need to spend this time focussing on a better future, which means I will be really knuckling down looking for work and getting fit. I have discovered a channel on sky 288. It is simply wonderful. It's all about Balance and helping to get a better body and lifestyle. I especially like Kundilini Yoga with Maya Fiennes, which I have tried and must say, I absolutely love to bits. It Is so relaxing and theraputic and has done wonders for my back and my mind.

I am still walking an awful lot, so between the two, I am feeling really good at the moment. I reccommend It to anyone. I also have my garden to tackle over the next couple of weeks, I should lose at least a stone doing that!! lol. I left the house the other night to go to the shop and as I stepped down the outside steps this enormous dark maroon coloured frog/toad thingy leapt up In front of me! lol. I almost fell back through the door. Once I had shouted my wee treasure down to witness the beastie, It leapt Into the garden/Jungle! lol.

I will have to do a sweeping brush search before I get the strimmer out! It may take some time!! lol. I can still hear my adoreable daughter laughing at the state of me. I also want to spend some time with my little monster! lol. I need to prise her away from the T.V. ER, One Tree Hill and Big Brother are a permanent fixture In this house! lol. So all my lovely darlings, I will Love you and leave you now with some Kundilini as a wee taster. Take Care of you all and I will see you all real soon. xx

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Weekly Sentence #20

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 18:36:14 GMT

Click here to play: Weekly Sentence

Each Week Val will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:-SCWTST

An example of a sentence could be - Six cows waded through sea tides .These letters MAY

NOT be re-arranged.

SCWTST

Here Is Mine:

Saucy Charlotte Whispered 'Tonight' Sweet Tiger.

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G & The Mouse

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 15:32:49 GMT

Psst Mort.. you can see a bit of flesh!! lol. ;-)

Hello Everyone, I went to my Aquafit class and almost had a pink fit! lol. The teacher was off again but my friend calmly reminded me that we could just swim lengths! Doh! I just never thought of that, and was ready to leave! lol. Well, we spent the hour pushing ourselves and It felt good. I was shattered when I came out the pool and walked the good distance home, In the pouring rain! lol. I wouldn't have minded so much but I had just spent time and money drying my hair!!! lol. Grrr.

I found myself In brand new territory this morning, very, very early. I came face to face with G (my cat) for those of you who don't know me. I beckoned him to come In and luckily noticed that he had a mouse In his mouth so rather than shrieking at him, at that unearthly hour, I opened my bottle of water and threw It over him. Hmmm. Well, I tried, He ran, the water missed him and soaked mister man's bike and so It began, The game of cat and mouse at 4am!

I walked towards him and wanted to check In case the mouse was still alive but my bad boy had other Idea's! Each time I closed In, he picked It up and ran further along the path, dropping It In front of him to lie looking at me. I was In full view of all the neighbourhood houses as I loudly whispered for him to put that down and get In the house! lol. He scrunched up his face looked at his mouse, looked at me and growled really loudly!!! Oh! The cheek of It! I have never seen this dark orange side to him!!! lol.

So, of course, I did the only thing I could do, under the circumstances and I growled back!! lol. I only hope all my neighbours were sound asleep. I told him he was a bad boy. After 3 or 4 steps I looked round and he was creeping behind me only to drop It down when I turned his way and begin to chew! Yuk! Now, I know that cats eat mice etc, It is the equivalent to a tasty steak to them, but I prefer mine to eat their crunchy biccy's, with treat's like ham and tuna! lol. He has the cheek to come In each morning acting like he is starving!!

He Is fast asleep on my bed next to Oscar now. It's no wonder he Is growing on a daily basis!! I had words with him earlier and we have an understanding now!!! lol. I will leave you now with a recent pic of my naughty boy! You'd think that butter wouldn't melt! lol. ;-) Take care, Back Soon. xx

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Weekly Sentence #19

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 13:59:09 GMT

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Each Week Val will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:-FATHER

An example of a sentence could be - Father always thought
he enjoyed ruling.These letters MAY

NOT be re-arranged.

FATHER

Here Is Mine:

Father's Are True Heroic Effervescent Rocks.

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Happy Father's Day Dad

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 13:46:31 GMT

Hello everyone. I am Indeed late posting this entry for Father's Day but Sunday just didn't have enough hours In the day!! lol. I only had 4 hours sleep on Saturday night so by Sunday morning I was a tad wobbly and rather hallucinogenic! lol. I woke to my wee treasure In a whisper asking, If It would be okay to give her dad his gifts and the card now? and I said yes. I got up and wished my mister man a happy day and called my own dad to wish him well before I went shopping.

My mum answered the phone and said my dad was In the car waiting for her to go to shopping to the same place as me! lol. We laughed and she said they would be right there to pick us up and we could all go together. Now when It comes to shopping my dad has to be the most patient man on this earth!. He usually stays In the car and just waits and waits! lol. I think with him being a keen fisherman all throughout his life, this has helped Immensley! lol. We got It all done and took a bit longer than we meant but, my dad just laughed.

I got all the shopping put In the boot and we all went across to their house. It is such a lovely place where they stay and you can really relax. I got all comfy and looked at wedding pictures of my parents while my wee treasure was totally taken aback asking If It was really them? lol. The day turned out to be far more special than ever anticipated and my dad was really happy.

When It comes to music, my dad loves all kinds and one of his all time favourites Is Johnny Cash. I have memories from years back hearing him sing and joining In with songs like, Ring Of Fire and Sunday Morning Coming Down, In the back of the car going away our holiday's and the last time I was over visiting we watched a show and film about him. It was really Interesting.

I will leave you now with my all time favourite....Sunday Morning Coming Down. It Is a song that no matter where It Is played, It will always remind me of my dad. I hope you enjoy It. Take Care, Back Soon. Love Pam xx

Well, I woke up Sunday morning
With no way to hold my head that didn't hurt.
And the beer I had for breakfast wasn't bad,
So I had one more for dessert.
Then I fumbled in my closet through my clothes
And found my cleanest dirty shirt.
Then I washed my face and combed my hair
And stumbled down the stairs to meet the day.

I'd smoked my mind the night before
With cigarettes and songs I'd been picking.
But I lit my first and watched a small kid
Playing with a can that he was kicking.
Then I walked across the street
And caught the Sunday smell of someone frying chicken.
And Lord, it took me back to something that I'd lost
Somewhere, somehow along the way.

On a Sunday morning sidewalk,
I'm wishing, Lord, that I was stoned.
'Cause there's something in a Sunday
That makes a body feel alone.
And there's nothing short a' dying
That's half as lonesome as the sound
Of the sleeping city sidewalk
And Sunday morning coming down.

In the park I saw a daddy
With a laughing little girl that he was swinging.
And I stopped beside a Sunday school
And listened to the songs they were singing.
Then I headed down the street,
And somewhere far away a lonely bell was ringing,
And it echoed through the canyon
Like the disappearing dreams of yesterday.

On a Sunday morning sidewalk,
I'm wishing, Lord, that I was stoned.
'Cause there's something in a Sunday
That makes a body feel alone.
And there's nothing short a' dying
That's half as lonesome as the sound
Of the sleeping city sidewalk
And Sunday morning coming down.

Tags: Happy Father's Day Dad.

A Strong Woman Award

Sat, 14 Jun 2008 17:24:05 GMT

Hello Everyone. I would just like to say thank You so much as, I was given this lovely award by Sherry, who originally received It from her children. Sherry has chosen 3 women that she considers to be strong and In turn wants the recipients to choose 3 more and, so the journey of the award goes, It will soon whip around J-land at the speed of light! lol.

The Complicated Men Award has still to be made!! lol. Only kidding all you lovely fella's. ;-)

Okay on to the hard bit of only choosing 3 wonderful strong women! Phew, Right now, I can name about 30 of you, but to prevent Sherry from chasing me with a large broom, I will stick to just 3.

Betty: Betty reminds me of a very wise owl, she seems to always appear when she Is needed the most, gives wonderful advice and, yet never seems to divulge anything too negative herself, Her faith Is truly Inspiring.

Angel: Angel has been amazing of late, with coping, In her sad quest to get over her mum's death. Her strong will and humour touches and tickles my very soul.

Krissy: Krissy's dedication towards her hubby John all throughout his darkest days of being desperately Ill, and still now to this day, demonstrates a very determined strength In Itself.

All 3 are Indeed a true testimont to the words 'Strong Woman'. Please collect your awards ladies and start your own choices, for 3 remarkably strong ladies. Take care, Back Soon. xx

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A Wee Worry Update.

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 14:10:38 GMT

Psst. Mort. That's 2 normal pics In a row! Shocking I know! lol.

Hello Everyone, I went to see the doctor this morning and came out feeling a lot more positive which is good! lol. My doctor Is such a nice man, He has all the time In the world for his patients and really cares. I am very lucky to have him. Anyway, He is referring me to see a Bowel specialist and hopefully we can get to the bottom (lol. mort..don't spill your tea at that pun!) of what's causing this flaming lump In my side. I got other results when I was there, that It wasn't this disease or that disease, which Is good! lol.
I am not looking forward to getting tubes down my throat or anywhere else for that matter!!! lol. Ohhh I am cringing, but I guess I will just have to be brave.

It Is a nuisance though and the sooner It gets sorted, the better!. I am waiting on a letter to come through for physiotherapy for my lower back aswell now which Is fab!. I have to go back next week and get blood tests done to check my thyroid level, I think It may still be a tad high as I am on the move constantly, (In my quest for the Supermodel figure! Ha!) and I am still carrying extra lard and still far too tired! Well. the old saying eh?..Rome wasn't built In a day! Hmmm. I am being very, very patient! lol.

Being worried around mister man Is always a recipe for disaster... His theory...'Och, stop whinging', 'It will be a bit of my Toad-In-The-Hole that's got stuck!' lol. I do end up In stitches at the way he cheers me up. I think we are all mad In this house! All three of us and the 3 cats! I will freak about It all nearer the time and no doubt have A wee worry part 83! by the time I am finished If I haven't disintegrated by then. lol.

I was disappointed to learn that the swimming was cancelled last night as Brutal Bertha needed the night off! Hmm. Can she not see my lard? lol. Typical eh?, They all let me down last week so I braved It and went myself, this week the flippin teacher absconds! I give up! lol. Anyway I will love you and leave you now With the brilliant Amy Macdonald. Hope you are all well. Take Care, Back Soon. xx

Mr. Rock And Roll

So called Mr Rock And Roll
Is dancing on his own again
Talking on his phone again
To someone who tells him that his balance is low
He's got no where to go
He's on his own again

Rock chick of the century
Is acting like she used to be
Dancing like there's no one there
Before she ever seemed to care
Now she wouldn't dare
It's so rock and roll to be alone

And they'll meet one day
Far away
And say "I wish I was something more"
And they'll meet one day
Far away
And say " I wish I knew you, I wish I knew you before"

Mrs Black and White
She's never seen a shade of grey
Always something on her mind
Every single day
But now she's lost her way
And where does she go from here

Mr Multicultural
Sees all that one can see
He's living proof of someone
Very different to me
But now he wants to be free
Free so he can see

And they'll meet one day
Far away
And say "I wish I was something more"
And they'll meet one day
Far away
And say "I wish I knew you, I wish I knew you before"

He'll say "I wish I knew you, I wish I met you
When time was still on my side"
She'll say " I wish I knew you, I wish I loved you
Before I was his bride"

And so they must depart
Too many more are broken hearts
But I've seen that all before
In TV, books and film and more
And there's a happy ending
Every single day

And they'll meet one day
Far away
And say "I wish I was something more"
And they'll meet one day
Far away
And say "I wish I knew you, I wish I knew you before"

Tags: A Wee Worry Update.

Weekly sentence #18

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 12:13:31 GMT

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Each Week Val will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:-STDIMS

An example of a sentence could be - Sardines taste delicious in mustard sauce These letters MAY

NOT be re-arranged.

STDIMS

Here Is Mine:

Student Tony Dressed In Molly's Stockings

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Special Friend Award

Fri, 06 Jun 2008 16:45:41 GMT

Hello Everyone,

I did some awards In a previous entry and wanted to give out some more to my extended J-Land family! lol. Thanks to each and every one of you. Gosh I feel like I'm at the Oscars! lol. and secondly I'd like to thank.... Lol. Only kidding!

I will make It short and sweet...You guys brighten my wee world. ;-) Take Care, Back Soon. xx

There is a Season ...Val

Ten thirteen goes forth ...Shaun

Life ...Andy

Amanda and the Gang ...Amanda

A Quiet Life......I Wish ...Carol

Life On A Bison Farm ...Lisa

Day to Day life in the Lakes ...Jeanie

IS'NT SHE GREAT!! ...Yasmin

ANYWAY..Connie

Latte'Dah ...Tracy

Boredom Eats Away At Me ...Jenny

Life & Faith in Caneyhead ...Barbara

Raven's Lament ...Indigo

Dare To Think ...Cathy

caring and sharing ...Mortonlake

Dusty Pages ...Lori

Serendipity ...Jan

Sometimes I Think ...Krissy

Sherry's weightloss journey ...Sherry

Atkins Adventures ...Donna

Joann's Weight Loss Journey ...Joann

MY SIMPLE RHYMES ...Kath

A journey of another kind ...Jane

Koda's Corgi Tales ...Betty

Dad's Tomato Growing Garden Journal 2008...Dad

Missy's Upside Down World ...Missy

Angel's thoughts

My Extremely Simple Life ...Joyce

For anyone who wants to give this to other friends, please go right ahead.;-) xx

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Depression

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 22:20:33 GMT

This Is something that has been playing on my mind for a while now, You know the old saying "better out than In"? Well.... here goes. At this time of year, when we are all getting festive, busily doing our cards, shopping, baking etc. There always seems to be someone, somewhere who has reached so far down, there can be no return for them. I get so frustrated and just want to do something to find these people and beg them to rethink. It always seems to be such an impossible task that has ended so tragically for some of my friends, One in particular, a very good friend indeed and It shook my world to hear that he hung himself just over a year ago. Totally out of the blue. He was such a gentle caring person. Depression Is such a cruel and hard battle. From my own personal experience a while back, at that time, the feelings were overwhelming and the want and the desire to stop It all, were massive. So easy to shut off, curl up and sneak off.

I was lucky. I'm here. What about the rest of the people out there? There are always things thrown at us, that makes us feel unbearable grief, and then, just when we think It can't get much worse...It does! It gets you again and sometimes again after that. A few very wise people guided me through some pretty awful times, with little sayings and thoughts that I would grab hold of and ponder on for ages. There are choices, we all know that. Everyone has their own personal demons to face throughout their lifetime and I believe we are all here for a reason and we are all tested. Mind though, Whoever wrote the test paper for that one ought to be smacked round the ears really hard! lol.

I am a firm believer that you can only reach total rock bottom once in your life. You may come close again, but strength and determination and many other factors seem to take the reigns, like family and friends etc. Without sounding like some kind of preacher, I, empathise with anyone who feels so low, at this time of year especially, and I, urge anyone In this position, to reach out to someone who can help. There Is always someone, somewhere, who knows and recognises those same thoughts. Christmas can be what you make It. If you need someone, Please, I urge you. Take just one step and speak out. Writing in a journal can be such a boost so go on, give It a go, You have nothing to lose!

I would finally like to share this poem with you all, as I think It speaks volumes and hope It can show anyone else in this position, that they are not alone. I am especially proud, that my sister who has been battling depression has written this. It's absolutely beautiful, and Sheila? for each day that passes, You will get stronger and happier and more confident. Well Done. Lots of Love. Your wee sis Pam xx

It is always darkest before the dawn

When all around is confusion and no-one understands
The blackness becomes tempting free from every sound

Gently floating softly towards a warmer place
stress, strain and worry no longer etch your face

Then quietly creeps in morning the blackness starts to fade
the sun shines brightly and youre suddenly in shade

As seratonin balances the darkness of your mind
the hope for the future is easier to find

So when you think life's over and you would like to slip away
remember mental illness is like the light of day

Strength to travel through the night will bring its own reward
It's always darkest before the dawn believe me, I am right.

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