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Slimming World Week 1
This is the blog which is too raw to post but I'm going to post it anyway.
So here we go again…...
Slimming World works! End of. I've lost loads on it, loads of times so why can't I do it this time?
I join Wednesday. Have fish, chips and mushy peas from the chippy but that's my last blow out ha ha!
Thursday off to Tesco after my run. No breakfast. Cottage cheese salad lunch. Chicken, carrots, broccoli new potatoes – hey doing really well here. Then.. 2 bags hula hoops, bowl of oat musili , half a block of cheese, half a box of cheese biscuits and a bottle and a half of wine!
Friday – Lunch Cottage cheese salad, Ham bits. Tea Jacket potato with tuna mayo.
Saturday – Ran hilly 5k 40mins -Brunch bacon, sausage, mushrooms. Tea large chicken kebab. 4 pints of cider and ½ a bottle of wine
Sunday – Breakfast Oatibix X 2, Lunch Tuna sandwiches (4x800g white loaf!) with Mayo, Tea Prawn Special Piza & garlic bread
Monday – Cycled 10 miles (Nercwys X2) 65minutes - Breakfast Oatibix X 2, Lunch baked potato with cottage cheese, Tea pasta with chunky vegatable sauce and sausages.Bottle of wine cheese biscuits and cheese.
There's this trigger in my brain saying "sabotage." I know I'm doing it. I can't help myself.
I did those Nercwys hills on Monday but I really struggled. I promised myself that never again would I have to drag 15 stone up them.
I tortured myself watching 2 old Gillian McKeith's last week. The guinea pigs lost 2 stone in 8 weeks. Not difficult.
I read an article in the Express on Monday about boot camp weight loss. One of them was a size 10(at the start!) All she did was to be picked up 4 times a week by limo and do 1 hour gym sessions plus have all her food delivered. Piece of cake! She, who needed to lose about an ounce, lost 11lb.
There was another who went to a boot camp and was on the "Pain is weakness leaving the body" regime for a week.
The last one went to Harrods on a machine for £20 a time 4 times a week for 4 weeks. She lost 2lb. All I can say is "They got big windows love!" AKA "Saw you coming!"
For goodness sake Lynne get to the point!
All I have to do is carry on with my exercise routine and convince my brain that my body's not on a restrictive diet.
At the beginning of my triathlon training I stuck religiously to a no alcohol – no food after 7ish regime. It worked wonders. That was before I'd achieved the stone and a half weight loss and before I proved to the world I could stick to an exercise routine.
My body is screaming make me slim. My brain is screaming you're not worthy! It's like I know that the "fat body" is stopping me doing so much and once the "fat body" problem has gone I'll have to face up to what's really wrong in my life.
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I commented on your last before I read this....
For what it is worth, I think you are being too hard on yourself. Losing a stone and a half is a mammoth acheivement. And it sounds to me like the problem is, not that you are not losing weight, but you are not losing it as fast as you might have wanted. Gillian McKeiths programmes are not a good indication of how much weight you should expect to lose - they look pretty much like faddy crash diets to me, which are no good for your body in the short term, and have been shown to cause long term damage to your health.
Slow and steady wins the race Lynne!
Plus - in my experience exercising makes you hungry. Especially for carbohydrates. So the first thing that stikes me about your meal plan is that especially in the start of the week - youre simply not eating enough carbs to fuel your running and cycling. In fact it looks to me like youre not really eating enough of anything in the early part of the day - so by the evening time your body is simply pumping out hormones that make you want to eat what ever you can lay your hands on.
I dont think that you are sabotaging yourself, so much as you havent quite cracked the balance yet.
I dont know what the slimming world policy is on what you can eat -- but I think a wholegrain breakfast is an absolute must. Or at the very least, a BIG bowl of fruit and yoghurt. And a decent sized lunch too, just to stop you eating everything in sight at night. And personally, I absolutely have to eat something at around 4pm to stop me ripping peoples heads off. My blood sugar really dips around this time, and all I need is a yoghurt, or a piece of fruit or something to see me through, and keep me strong at dinner.
I'm sorry if I sound all preachy - its just frustrating to see you beat yourself up for being weak willed, when I dont think that is the problem at all - the problem is the 'diet
08/05/08 09:48