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4 months yesterday
This was supposed to have been posted on Wednesday but I didn't get the chance. It was four months since I lost Felix on the 25th. I am so sorry for being late Felix. Mammy was thinking about you all day on Wednesday.
Four months ago today, when everybody was celebrating Christmas day, my life was totally changed. I lost the most important friend in my life, my baby Felix. It was a devastating day when I found his little body. I will never as long as I live get those horrific images out of my head. I will also never forgive myself for not being with him when he died nor finding him when he needed me most. I let him down, I let him die. That is a hard thing to live with.
To my darling baby boy, my gorgeous, handsome, beautiful boy, I love you so much. I miss you so much my darling boy and wish with all my heart I could have just one more minute with you so I can say sorry and can say goodbye properly. You was the most gentle, loving and affectionate baby in the world. You adored me as much as I worshiped you. I will cherish the love you gave me forever. I was truly blessed when you came into my life and it could not have been more perfect during the short time I had you. I will keep those few months in my heart as well. I have the memories of you, something I will never forget, and something nobody can take away from me. It is those memories though, that at times makes me miss you even more. When I remember how wonderful life was with you in it, I miss you even more and want you back even more. I will see you again one day though baby and I hope you wait at the rainbow bridge for me, having fun and playing in the sunshine whilst you wait. Mammy loves you darling Felix and I will always love you till we meet again. I am sending kisses on the clouds today, so that when they get high in the sky, you can reach over and get them. I am also going to send a balloon up today, on your bridge day. The balloon says sorry, but it also says I love you..................from Mammy xxxxx
Jules (felix's mammy) xx
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He was indeed a beauty & looked like such a loving soul.
I was honored to list him on J-Lands Pet Memorial. Please know my heart goes out to you as having lost several beloved furrs along the way, I know the feeling...but know that I will see them again, in time.
Blessings, Sugar
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It was so sad that you had so much sorrow when every one else was celebrating. I hope you are ok Jules. I think you are brave to do that run, blimey I could just about run down the road and that would be it. Hugs, Terry x
29/04/07 21:03
Jenny xx