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Feeling Anxious
SENSE OF DOOM
Did I tell ya I got myself a lap top? Well I did. Last month was bonus month, so it was a little treat to myself. I can now sit anywhere in my home and tip tap away to my hearts content! I'm at my dining table as I type.
This entry isn't coming from my normal chirpy self. It's coming from the side that does'nt often show it's face, but it's there, niggling away in the back ground all the time. This is why I'm so emotional, I think.
Let me tell you where I am at the moment.
1, Getting married, or the technical term, having a civil partership.
I am elated, truly elated at the moment. Yesterday, I went to collect the rings and was shaking in the shop as it dawned on me what was happening. I just wanted to throw up all over the poor sales assistant, I mean, can you imagine if I had? LOL.
2, Work has been shitty, but it's sorting itself out slowly, but I feel I need to cut back on the early starts cos belieive me, it's slowly killing me.
3, Next month is my 50th birthday (gulps) I mean fkin 50? I still feel like 25 in my head.
I got such a shock when I was in Belfast last week as I caught sight of myself in my underpants and socks in the mirror and stood up and screamed out as though there was a stranger in my room. Was that realy me in the mirror? Yeah......... What a fkin mess!
4, We are looking to our long term future and I am house hunting AGAIN! I ain't saying too much but I think we have found what we are looking for. Our mortage will be cut in half and we can pay it off in 6 years, if we keep our payments the same. This will then enable us to rent out our property and we can piss off to Spain and have a good income. I just hope the mans figures are right as I am shit at all that stuff. I'm just creative dahlinks!
5, I've been to have some moles checked out and was told to see a specialist immediatly. I had a dodgy one removed about 15 years ago, when no one worried about them then and have the scar to prove it. It's the size of an orange in the middle of my back! The nurse checking them out said to me that I obviously never went to a plastic surgeon. Well I did, but that darn thing had spread right into my muscle hence the scar......... Yeah, I am worried as I don't want to go through all that crap again. My appointment is next Wednesday.
Anyways........ I feel sorry for myself. Things are happening to my body that I presume is just because I am hitting 50. Everything, EVERYTHING, is heading south. I've even got tits, I mean WTF?
I was caught at Belfast airport looking at the anti wrinkle cream by L'Oreal for men, cos I'm woth it ya know?
Sod the anti wrinkle cream. I need an extreme makeover!
Enjoy your Sunday.
PP xxxxx
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Throwing up on someone is better then mace!! Still, don't! Sales people have to deal with crap all day and barf would just cause that fragile little mind to snap! Congrats on being an editor's pick as well. You're having a darn fabulous month, aren't ya? -Dawn-
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Hi Gaz,
Congrats on being one of tis week's guest editor picks!
Martha ~ http://journals.aol.com/lifes2odd/perception/ -
Hope you have a wonderful day on the 20th and live happily ever after :o)
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Congratulations on being chosen as Guest Editor's Pick. Love Pam xx
16/03/08 06:45
I just wanted to add my good wishes for you and Phil on your wedding next month. I made an honest man of my lovely Peter two years ago (on his 60th birthday) after being together for 20 years! I shall be thinking of you both on the day!
Hope all goes well for next Wednesday too, let us know the outcome.
Love, Pat x